What’s on your table?

When I have investigated the rationale for my past behaviors and thoughts – my biased internal dialog about the “whys” I did something – a freezer full of defensive responses came spewing forth to my ego’s rescue. There are reasons for my behaviors, some of which even I can’t believe, but I am willing to defend them, no matter how stupid they may be.

I got to thinking about the feeders, how they eat negatively charged emotional energy like hors d’oeuvres at a party. Now I get a kind of sick satisfaction when the question “why” comes around, because now, I pause to think before I go to defense – taking the food off the table.

Withholding is a bitch!  😀

When I let go of a need to justify myself, I give myself a break from catering a party I don’t even want to attend.

What’s at your party table?