{"id":1774,"date":"2012-04-03T20:57:14","date_gmt":"2012-04-03T20:57:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/?p=1774"},"modified":"2012-08-24T20:27:54","modified_gmt":"2012-08-24T20:27:54","slug":"catering-to-a-feed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/catering-to-a-feed","title":{"rendered":"Catering to a Feed"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"attachment_1821\" style=\"width: 284px\" class=\"wp-caption alignright\"><a href=\"http:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/catering-to-a-feed\/catering\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-1821\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-1821\" class=\"size-full wp-image-1821\" title=\"catering\" src=\"http:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-content\/uploads\/catering.jpg\" alt=\"What's on your table?\" width=\"274\" height=\"184\" srcset=\"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-content\/uploads\/catering.jpg 274w, https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-content\/uploads\/catering-200x134.jpg 200w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 274px) 100vw, 274px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-1821\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">What&#8217;s on your table?<\/p><\/div>\n<p>When I have investigated the rationale for my past behaviors and thoughts &#8211; my biased internal dialog about the &#8220;whys&#8221; I did something &#8211; a freezer full of defensive responses came spewing forth to my ego&#8217;s rescue. There are reasons for my behaviors, some of which even I can&#8217;t believe, but I am willing to defend them, no matter how stupid they may be.<\/p>\n<p>I got to thinking about the feeders, how they eat negatively charged emotional energy like<strong> hors d&#8217;oeuvres<\/strong> at a party. Now I get a kind of sick satisfaction when the question &#8220;why&#8221; comes around, because now, I pause to think before I go to defense &#8211; taking the food off the table.<\/p>\n<p>Withholding is a bitch!\u00a0 \ud83d\ude00<\/p>\n<p>When I let go of a need to justify myself, I give myself a break from catering a party I don&#8217;t even want to attend.<\/p>\n<p>What&#8217;s at your party table?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>When I have investigated the rationale for my past behaviors and thoughts &#8211; my biased internal dialog about the &#8220;whys&#8221; I did something &#8211; a freezer full of defensive responses came spewing forth to my ego&#8217;s rescue. There are reasons &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/catering-to-a-feed\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[15,19,121],"class_list":["post-1774","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-thoughts-on-feeding","tag-ego","tag-emotional-energy","tag-rationale"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1774","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/7"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1774"}],"version-history":[{"count":47,"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1774\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1778,"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1774\/revisions\/1778"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1774"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1774"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/carol.bennette.org\/feeders\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1774"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}